I’m Struggling peeps.
I am struggling more than I have ever struggled.
The House is falling down around me, it’s actually falling to pieces, ceilings crumbling, rain pouring through, Cracks appearing over-night again – Main one through the support wall (which prompted our “de-cant” a few years ago for a remedy, which obviously hasn’t worked).
The 13th Surveyor (in 18 months) has been out & re-appraised & again agreed, YES the structural damage is significant enough that the (Housing Association) wouldn’t put a tenant in here; However a week after that visit, the water is still pouring in. And I, the existing tenant, am STILL the tenant paying full rent!
I have spoken with the HA direct & despite them all-knowing the history of the property & knowing how stressful this part of my life is (damage to property, not being able to use parts of the house, ongoing damp/health implications) They still will-not move me & my daughters – Unofficially & off the record, I was told last week it’s all due to £££££, All the while I am in there – I am paying full rent that they would NOT get if they moved us to a property which was not “uninhabitable”.
So I have that going on.
I have a mother with full-blown dementia, Acute Chronic Heart failure, COPD & various other illnesses, which I have been arguing with the local authority for help for (gets Attendance allowance) – They are still refusing to help. Despite my providing all her financial details, the ins & outs of everything she has ever done, (she like me, always worked & this is her first foray into the horrid world of benefits), I have provided them with bank statements, income reports, doctors reports, tenancy agreements etc etc & yet 6 months after my first request for help for her, still I receive an email from the Local Authority stating she is not providing enough proof of her “need” – If I don’t sort this out for her, she will be homeless within 2 months….. How much more need does a 75-year-old dementia sufferer need to have? (She rents privately & this as taken every drop of her savings, she is now broke!).
I have been “lost” by the NHS again (2nd time) & my Blood transfusion (due this week) wasnt been booked. These are the ones I must have every 6 weeks or so as my system produces incorrectly shaped blood cells.
I have an “emergency appointment” now, booked for the consultant in 4-6 weeks – What a bloody joke.
I am currently on 12 tablets a day & feel sick every frigging morning – I get up tho & go to work.
Now here’s the funny thing – I have been served with a “Notice to quit” my home, as for the first time in 24 years, as I have a multitude of stress piling upon me right now, I have underpaid my rent for 2 months. (I pay full rent, but couldn’t afford it Nov & Dec as I had a fair amount of time off work & had to go into hospital) BUT because of the way the system works, as I work, if i under pay for 7 weeks – I am immediately jumped upon & served notice, whereas, if I was on benefits & didn’t pay the minimal amount, I would be offered counselling & help & wouldn’t be served notice until the debt reached a large amount (so after a much longer time)… This is NOT a opinion, This is fact!
At the meeting I attended, I was asked – to my face why don’t I just claim benefits, as I am obviously “sick”……. Then I would be OK financially..
The new Gov rules are attacking us Low income earners so much, it is proven it is us that are losing our homes & let’s be honest, our dignity….
I have adult children (officially termed now as NEET) Not Employed or in Education or Training. Which I support financially – by myself.
They depend on me, so I work! Its not even something I think about, its something that I do.
I don’t want a pat on the back, I don’t want a gold star, BUT I do want to know why the people of the UK feel its OK for the government to demonize the Low income earners so much that we are suffering more than I ever thought possible.
I understand people want the benefits system looked at – Thank you sensationalist journalism & media spin from the main parties & their cronies – Totally aimed at stopping you & I from seeing the real picture!
Working people need our homes – We need a base to work from… Why on earth is the first thing the Gov want to take from us, be our Home???
I will tell you why, because after just 7 short weeks of my failing to pay the £175 from my £230 take home pay, they can see themselves getting their hands on a nice house in an affluent area, which will be sold cheaply to an “elite” member or a developer etc etc – all coffers for the richer part of society….
Moving us “Difficult to categorise” people away – NIMBY style (Not in My Back Yard scream the Elite)….
I want to write more, BUT I am actually in a bit of a hole at the moment & don’t know what to do.
I will spend this weekend trying to sort stuff out (whilst popping pills & being sick & working from home, writing for people over the internet for $3 for 1000 words LOL)
Oh sometimes I just want to scream – Thank you all for listening to me, through the “political activist” rants & my almost 50-year-old depressed working, crumbling woman rants.
Redress the balance between us all a bit..
Not fight amongst ourselves, not sit back & watch